You sit on the edge of your bed with your face in your hands, cobwebs hang from the corners of your ceiling. Your blinds are drawn tightly and your phone is switched off. It’s morning but you’re still tired. It’s Wednesday, but it feels like Sunday. Your days are all running into each other, like ink on wet paper.
I will love you in your darkest, when it feels like you’re living in slow motion. I’ll help you dust the webs that have been gathering in your heart. I’ll open your window and let the light in. I’ll remind you what day it is.
Your notebook sits untouched for days. Your pen is too heavy to hold. You feel like a hypocrite writing about beauty when all you feel is pain. So you let the pages blow away, and lay collecting dust underneath your bed.
I will love you in your darkest, when it feels as though you’re treading water and not getting anywhere. I will hold your hand until the words flow from your fingertips and onto your keyboard. I will remind you that your dreams are relevant and you’re making a difference in this world.
You stand by the cliffs edge. You take one-
and the ground begins to sway under your feet. You look down and imagine how it’d feel to throw everything painful into that bottomless void. You cry out for someone to tell you that this isn’t the way, that your life is important.
I will love you in your darkest, I will be there calling you back into my arms. I will tell you how much I love you, and that there’s purpose for your life. I’ll guide you away from danger and back into safety.
You fall asleep holding your pillow. There’s a dried tear on your cheek, and your dreams are a tangled mess. You toss and turn and no amount of chamomile tea can put you to sleep.
I will love you in your darkest, I will hold you close until you fall asleep. I’ll dry your tears and stroke your cheeks. I’ll sing to you about the stars, and when you wake up with nightmares I’ll whisper into your ear-
“I will love you in your darkest moments.”
This is me describing the unconditional love that God has for His children.